The only way i really feel better and being able to express myself is through words. Words that are not necessarily intended for someone. Through writing, i feel a sense of ease, like something huge is lifted off my shoulder.
Lately, I have been feeling very... lost.
I know I am not myself if i don't feel like I give 110% of what i have to the things i do.
Graduate school has been a blur lately.
Often times, I try to REALLY convince myself it's just a phase. I was in denial. I just needed to rekindle my passion.
I think it has a lot to do w/ giving up the things in life that makes me happy. It's not easy.
I find myself questioning WHY.
Why did i do this? Why did i quit my job? Why did i move away from family?
And it sucks you know? Because we always make life decisions with the thought that it will all be worth it in the end.
I am currently in a hanging bridge and the unpredictable path is killing me in the inside.
Where do i go after this? What would i do? What now?
I HATE UNCERTAINTY.
I have always had my life planned.
Now, i still question a lot. and maybe, that's okay.
It's a cycle I must overcome..
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